The Weight is Lifting....

Finally, finally, finally.....

The wheels are in motion and I'm headed in the direction that I want to go. I still have a whole lotta work ahead of me, but thankfully, much of it is in my control...and that's always a better situation, than to have so many things OUT of my control, and no way to change it.

I'm moving forward, people..moving forward and moving on.

YAY!

Adding Insult to Injury

Only *I* would choose "the most depressing day of the year" to go swimsuit shopping.

Seriously, people, what the HELL was I thinking, hmm?

BAH!

I'm gonna go eat some chocolate.

"Blue Monday"

I read this morning that according to some so-called "experts", every year the 3rd Monday in January is known as the "most depressing day of the year".

NO

SHIT

SHERLOCK.


It's a low day, people. I'm not going to deny that. It's a day full of questioning everything, and wondering what's going to come next (and not feeling particularly enthusiastic about any of it).

I guess part of it comes back to, once again, feeling like I'm stuck in one spot and spinning my wheels. I have a plan, the plan will work and the plan feels good; the plan just actually has to get started. I've done as much as I can on my end for right now; I'm currently in "wait-and-see" mode. Once it actually starts to happen, I know that my life and my outlook on it will change dramatically. Until I get there, however, things look pretty depressing.

Blue Monday indeed.

The Trouble with Happiness.....

The trouble with happiness is that it seems as though it just can't last forever. Sooner or later, the air just escapes out of the "happiness balloon". It took a lot longer this time, I can see that; but still, it has escaped my grasp once again.

The good news, I guess, is that eventually I'll find it again.

Hopefully.

Someday.

It's nights like these when I wonder if it's really mine to have....

Happiness is......

....piping hot spicy black bean soup for lunch when it's FREEZING outside!!!

Frustration is.....getting a blister on the roof of my mouth from said soup.

OUCH!

SOOOOOO C-C-C-C-OLD......

*I do not want to leave the house*


*I do not want to leave the house*


*I do not want to leave the house*


....but I committed to taking the girls out this afternoon. We're getting together with some other homeschoolers, and frankly, we've been cooped up in this house too many days in row.

And tonight is yoga night...I haven't been there since before Christmas; it's very much a requirement at this point - for my physical, mental, and emotional well-being. I simply *must* go. Gal's gotta stay bendy after all.

I just hope I don't freeze off anything essential.

Is it spring yet????

Setting Priorities

As I think more and more about this whole idea of "cleaning house" (my mental, emotional, and spiritual 'house', that is), I am becoming increasingly aware of the importance of gathering close to me those people and things who ARE important in my life. And, I guess, an extension of that, is figuring out WHO those people really are. Because honestly, some of them aren't who I thought. And while that's disappointing in a way, it's also very freeing - to be at a point where I'm able to figure out who the people are who will really be there when things get tough (and it doesn't get much tougher than what I'm going through now, folks).

I'm seeing now that a great deal of the last 10 years was just an illusion..that things weren't really what they seemed. I feel like I am seeing more clearly than I have in years. It's an amazing feeling.

I still have a long way to go. A lot of things to figure out, a lot of things that need to be worked on and sorted out. But I'm on the right path now.